wishful thinking

there are those dreams that some people dream all their lives.
we wish and we wait.

i've realized that i'm always waiting. but what in the world am i waiting for?

a few weeks ago something i've been wishing came true. and you know it wasnt at all what i expected. it was actually the opposite. i wanted the wish to go away.

but again i find myself waiting.

so many thoughts run through my head

i dont know whats going on with the world these days
while everyone races to be the prettiest, the strongest, the best.
what matters anymore to this generation of comfort and technology?
the life that used to prize streams of water as they formed the centers
of communities..becomes landfills filled with water bottles.

has the pureness of life gone away?
that no one can be satisfied with simplicity.
now its fortune and overabundance.
having the most, having it all
versus wanting what you already have.

and few can fight this. this age that takes people in
with no knowledge of whats going on.
don't you wish you could start over?
go back to the beginning when you and i were nothing
but everything at the same time.
forget all the fights, the brokenness, the greed, the pride.

clear skies, fresh cupcakes, talks that last hours.

lets go back. back to the beginning.

no more digging holes.

so many times in my life, i find myself regretting everything: choices, relationships, actions, etc.

but you know, where does that get us? where does that take us in our life journeys? nowhere.
you sorta find yourself digging yourself into a hole that won't stop getting deeper until you get out and move on.
but its hard not to think, what if? or could that have happened? or even, if i had done that what would things be like today?... but the reality of it is that, today is the way it is for a reason and theres no reason for us to sit and dwell on everything thats gone on.
you learn from your mistakes, dust off your knees, and get back up on your feet.
of course you might make another mistake or embarrass yourself along the way, but seriously, we're human. Flaws and weirdness is what gives someone their true character. maybe its just me, but i'd rather have someone flawed and weird than someone "perfect" and fake.
i used to hate it when people would call me out or those who are brutally honest.. but now i really respect those people who have the decency and courage to say what they truly want to say. it takes real moxie haha.

so here's to honesty and getting back up on your feet!

a cup of tea

they say that when life gives you lemons, make lemonade.
except what if those lemons are rotten?
what if they aren't even lemons, they're limes?

the point is that despite your best efforts to change the people around you, the world, and ultimately yourself... you're still really left with those lemons that you were given.
the only one who can change them is the giver.. and he likes to be called God :)

we were all given our each individual lemons, because God knows that they're the type to make our own PERFECT glass of lemonade. it's up to us to be able to take advantage of the fact that we even have lemons and that we even have someone to give us some.

so.. despite my brusied lemons....i'm gonna make some amazing lemonade